It has been a full year since my last post. Many things have happened between then and now. Ashamedly, I must admit, I lost focus on my health journey. My hope is that my transparency will maybe help you who are struggling, who are feeling down about where you are, and who are on the brink of giving up. That you will be inspired to pick yourself up and either begin your own health journey or hit that restart button.
I know what it is like to see some success, then to go backwards. I know the feeling of failure and the pain of knowing that you have let yourself down, yet again, just as so many times before. I know what it is like to beat yourself up because you know all of the right things to do but just can’t get in the mindset to do them. I know the disappointment that comes from restarting time and time again only to be derailed when things get tough emotionally.
Here is my encouragement to you. You have only truly failed when you quit. When you decide not to get back up, or to never start. Each time I try and fail, I learn something new about myself. Each time I fall, I get back up faster or I don’t fall as hard the next time. I know with 100% certainty that the plan I follow works, it saves lives and it has drastically changed mine. I know that as long as I continue to get up, until I get to where I want to be/need to be, that I WILL get there. I am surrounded by a community and mentors who do not give up on me, even when I seem to have given up on myself.
I have learned on my journey that it isn’t about the food. It is about something much deeper. It is not about saying no to what I enjoy, but about saying yes to living a healthy life. Yes, to loving and caring about myself. Yes to accomplishing my goals. Yes to setting an example to my children of what is possible. Yes to creating the life that God designed me live. Yes to the life that I deserve.
I have also learned that this also means saying no to negative self talk. No, to unhealthy habit loops. No, to the voices inside my head that want me to fail. No, to surroundings that do not support me in where I want to go.
I am embarking once again, on a journey. The path is not straight and it is not easy. I will have set backs, I may even fail again. But I will get back up, I will try again, I will set my intention and live in a place of love and gratitude. God is my guide, I never walk alone even when at times it may feel that way. I know that he has a plan of great things for my life and that my journey is part of that.
What are you contending for? Are you ready to pick yourself up off the floor, dust yourself off and start, or start again? Are you ready to decided, like I am, that you have too much to offer to dwell in a sea of self pity? Every day will not be perfect, challenges and habits will not change over night but, if you continue to press forward, even if it is only one small step each day you WILL see change.
Fueling Faith Now 