Reaching ONEderland

Choosing your goal DOES pay off!

Everything comes down to making choices. We make thousands of choices everyday. Sometimes we make good ones and sometimes we don’t. For many years I chose to not feel things and to hide these feelings even from myself by using food. If I am being honest I am still working through this. You see, I don’t like feelings. They make me uncomfortable. It doesn’t matter if it is sad, happy, lonely, excited, nervous or any others. I feel very awkward when I feel things. If I avoid these feelings then I also avoid the un-comfortableness that comes along with them.

This is one of the reasons that moving from the 200’s in weight to 100’s is such a momentous occasion for me. The last time I was in the 100’s was almost 13 years ago when I first became pregnant with my son. After that baby weight came on, the 100’s were gone! During the pregnancy, I had gotten up to 275 pounds. Along with that baby weight also came hypothyroid disease which also makes it hard to lose weight. Over and over I tried different things to lose weight. I did low carb diets, carb cycling, and incorporating different types of exercise. I was usually successful in losing at least 10 pounds but have not been successful in much more than that or sustaining loss. For the last 6 years or so I have bounced around in the range of 265 to 250.

I was planning on indulging on Mothers Day- I was even upset that morning when I had lost a pound. The choice was harder for me now. When I did not feel like I was progressing it was easy to just say “screw it, I will just work it off again later .” This day was different though. This time, I was starting the day closer than I had been to my goal of making it under 200 in years. I knew I needed to stick to the plan that I know works so well. I knew that if I did I could break through that threshold I would be able to keep going. After church I went to the BBQ, I said no to the potato salad I was so looking forward to. I said no to my Grandmas home made banana pudding and I said yes to me. Yes to my goals, yes to my health. I put my hamburger on a bed of lettuce with pickles and onion and a bit of thousand island. That was one of the best salads I had ever eaten. In that moment, I knew I was going to overcome that barrier I had been facing for so long.

On 5/14/19 I stepped onto the scale with that usual mix of anticipation and dread. With my breath held, I put one foot in front of the other and gazed down as I watched that magic number appear. I did it! I made it into ONEderland! Choosing to stay the course paid off! Finally, I had the reward I had been waiting for since I began my journey.

Feelings and choices continue to be difficult. Be encouraged friends, change takes time. Our habits were not developed over night nor will they go away overnight. Make your choices one at a time. Value yourself, be persistent and consistent. Sticking to the plan does lead to success. You can do this. Keep going, don’t quit, find your grit. You will perservere!

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